What's on my mind?

I feel I'm dying inside... I know I'm stupid at times.
I know I'm not perfect one, I can make mistakes, "I'm sorry" 😞
I feel dumb. I can't do anything cause I'm here live in a far far away land.
Sorry if I'm jealous. I just love you so much. 
I know I'm not beautiful, pretty, sexy like other girls there but u made me feel I am.

I know every relationship has ups and down but sometimes I wanna lose hope. 
There are many question bothering my mind. "Do I deserve to be love?" "Do I deserve to be happy?"
"Do I deserve to breath?"

I know I'm unlucky cause my name it says that I mean the meaning of my name is unlucky.
I wanna show you how much I love you. How much I miss you. How much I really want to be with you. 

I'm sorry for being stubborn and headed. 
I'm sorry if I'm not perfect. 
I'm sorry If I can't afford to treat you the food that you like.
😢😢😢😢